utah

hey well i guess i'm prolly not going to utah... ya well mom and i got in an argument yesterday after judo nad stuff and i dont really have a ride besides dad, but we kinda worked it out.... i told her that i would rather save 4 the trip this september.... ohhh it hurts to say that..... i wish there was some way i could go see morgan without having to spend a lot.... ahhh i jsut wish i could cry and not have to hold it in..... well i guess i'll be able to go to honors tea... ya that ahhhhh damn i keep thinkign that it will be better this way.... and i fell i almost want it to be this way! ahhh like i purposely wanted it to be this way..... ahhh i want to go see morgan but i am soo mad b/c she hasnt e-mailed me since 3 and a half weeks ago. i dont kno.... i love her but i just cant figure out why she doesnt e-mail me. well on a good note, i gave mrs goodman flowers on tuesday and she loved 'um so that was good... she gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek.... i love mrs goodman sooo much.... she is sooo cool oh plus she sang to us and it was just wonderful... i wish she could sing to me like htat more often.... i wish she was one of my relatives so she could sing to me.... man it was soooo good.... well i need to sleep.... bye