angry day

yes well 2 day i was in a pissy mood.... yep.. not pms tho. ya then i ate like 6 kisses. ya i still odnt know what to do about nate! oh i really like him but dont but ohhh i do! hahah i hope he likes me like i do and it isnt me over liking him! well 2day went perdy well. not much to say... x-cept hta i have $133 so far for KOREA! boo ya! well g2g! luv, amelio

field trip

yes well 2 day we went on a field trip. pretty fun. kailey was my bus buddie. yes... hmm well one thing that really pissed me off was that i asked ppl to come with me to the bathroom... nobody wanted to come so i went (this was just after i ate and waz at wendys). and when i get back they are all "so amelia did u perge" like i threw up! ahhh gosh. grrrr..... well i feel like painting something. yes haha prolly cause i just went to an art museum. lol. grrr... i in a pissed mood again! oh well.. ya so i waz sooo tired and crap poo i feel like sleeping 4 ever! plus i cannot think of what to do with nate! oh man like i htink he likes laruen the way he hangs with her and combs all the time... i htink maybe he likes her too.... man i need to talk to kailey.... maybe. well i need 2 sleep. yes. luv, amelia

Kailey

well 2 day waz ok... jenny waller waz giving me a hard time 2day... well i talked 2 kailey and stuff and i know i can talk to her and stuff. yes well hmmm not much... i took my headphones nad listened to my chemical romance during 6th period. and i need to go b/c moocow wants to go to bed. so c ya@!

great day

wow waht a great day! oh my gosh it was awesome. ok well mallory got her braces off but i havent seen her yet. umm i got to skip school from noon on to help mom and then i found i got into Upward bound!!!!! yes! judo was awesome too.. 2 day rocked... hahah mrs goodman wrote me this in an e-mail "xoxo CUL8R (I'm learning this cool virtual vernacular....)" hahah i love her soooo much. oh jesus i konw you hear me i love you and i am dancing for you right now! just like chris rice. wow thatnk you soo much.... oh man i amm in such a good mood... i hope i can go to sleep! ok well sleep tight! luv, amelia

hey there2

howdy well i am a little sad cause the spice girls are on right now! well last nite i couldnt log on cause mom said i had to and i almost snick up and did but i decided i'd respect her choice so ya. well went to kayla tucker's house today and holy crap!!! Big!!! plus jennee benson's house. we worked on "BOCREAMTOX" ya. i am sooo tired and my tounge and upper throat really hurts like when i swallow and crap! yes well i am glad i have this spice girls cd from hailey and jenny w. well i dotn have much.. cept wjj will have their next issue next year! bummer well g2g! bye

health project!!!

well i went to christin's house and that waz ok... x cept that brittany got me in trouble! christin's mom got a little mad at me when we "locked brittany outta the house" whatever but overall it was pretty cool... ummm i havent decided about nate... man i dont know if i want to keep him or if i should let him go... ya i would feel horible. i really need to know if he still likes me or not and i am sooo stressing about the health project we have due on friday... wow heidi says we are screwed... dang well i am scaring myself... dang i hate stress... plus hte utah black belt test is hte same day as honor's tea! ahhh then hte tourney is the next day! dang well i need to sleep! night~amelia

hmmm... nate

well i am haveing a hard time trying to figure out if i want to wait ot have sex til marrage or if i dont want to wait ahh well i need to sleep and i wonder if nate really is gay b/c wehn we kissed it seemed like he didnt really like it or whatever.... i dotn know. well i g2g bye.

better day!

hey well today was much better! yes... x-cept mrs. goodman was gone so that sucked... but otherwis all was awesome... ok well i'm tired so i got ot go. bye!

better day!

hey well today was much better! yes... x-cept mrs. goodman was gone so that sucked... but otherwis all was awesome... ok well i'm tired so i got ot go. bye!

not very fun

hello well today kinda wasn't that great. hmm... deanna had to come over in the morning so my morning was not normal... i went to journal meeting and there was no meeting. then we had to take nwea then everyone fricken cheated in pushups in health class...... grrrrrrr i hate that sooooo much. it makes me very angry to think about it!!!! well (deep breathing) so then mr jones was a total jerk in history... even to mallory and emily carol. so then i was just ignoring everything around me and i spilled the spoon to one of the lunch serving things then i was out the door getting ketchup and i silled All my fries!!! then i got all sticky cause lindsey and i got in a drink fight after lauren was being a total jerk to lindsey. so i have pop in my hair and crap on my shirt and i go to see mrs goodman... which was a plus (oh and Upward bound still hasnt interviewed me which was supposed to happen in st) and i had to sort pictures and she was like are you ok? nad i was like ya i'm fine.... she said liar.. so i had to expain to her... which is a good thing... yes i know it is but i still am scared aobut my sad side... then mrs. ponich was being perverted again... mr roberts was being a jerk to steph and i cause we were talking... well i guess i did make honers tea... mallory and leeann and kailey and....lemmie think... soon me all had their auntie visits! i hate that when you can tell your friend has it but you feel awkward and crap... ahh then at taekwondo i made this girl cry... yes brianna got all upset because i moved her b/c some other boys were being farts adn her mom was all "remember this is the one you have to explain everthing too" in this voice that was like i purposely made her daughter cry... ahhh nate... no. no more is being said about him. morgan...... i havent talked to her in years... i call and blah... i'll call u back... i'll call you back.................... I"M WAITING! damn i hated to day.... it's days like this that i dont want to live. i want to go away i just..... but i try to stay outta the "funk" but ahhhhhhhhhhh...... man i hope things arent this difficult in 9th grade and crap because i dont want to live if this type of shit goes on all the time. man... jeez... the only thing partly is that i know god is there nad i dont want ot go to hell so i know that is part of the reason i am here still and stuff..... man i keep telling myself over and over that god and jesus are there... yes i know it helps like right now but... their part of the deal is done but my half is still struggling... i'm not alone... man i am ok now that i think about happy things.... i do want to live.... i found this thing the other day... it was a rough draft letter my grandma was sending to a quilting thing of when i made my purple and blue quilt... it said (lemmie type it word for word) "I believe the future of our country is in the great hands with kids like her." oh grandma i love you soo much and i am soo happy you thought of me that way... eveytime i read that it makes me cry... oh grandma i love you.... well i have to go.. tata